Fight back!!

So many times in the past few years, I have woken up feeling more tired than before I went to bed. I have felt like I lost the will to live, to smile, to be me. I have over thought the texts I sent, the things I said, the decisions I made and I have cursed myself out, blaming myself for every bad thing that happened to me. I was right in doing so in so many situations but there were so many things my heart knew was out of my control. I still hated myself for not having things under control. That is what DEPRESSION feels like. When you hate to do things and hate yourself for not wanting to do things. 
I remember being the person that people came to when they were sad, I remember being there for them and telling them it was going to be okay but then nothing irritated me more that when people said it was going to be okay. I remember watching greys anatomy all night and crying because that is what my heart felt like. Eventually I worked to a point where I started appreciating what I had and rationalizing why what happened to me happened. And now I look back and smile because I beat depression. Point being: don't be ashamed, don't hide your feelings, talk about it, sort it out. Life is too short to live with the shades of depression on. BREAK FREE! Only you can do it! 

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